3 months life.....

3 months have passed and this alerts me that I do not update my blog for a period of time. During these 3 months, countless things had happened surrounding me. No matter it was depression, unpleasant, despondency, joyful, delighted or enjoyable life, it was over. Let it be part of my unforgettable memory… remain it forever in my heart.

22^nd December 2008, I am terribly busy with assignment. Once the dreadful assignment for Financial Management was over, another task for Audit approached. I am extremely strenuous and tiring with my assignment work. Tomorrow will be the deadline for the submission of assignment and adversely, it point out that tomorrow will be the day that I am seeking for since long time ago. No more stress, pressure and anxiety of lately submission emerge in my heart. I am FREE…. I am RELAX….. And the most important thing is, tomorrow is my 20^th years old birthday! I am looking for an enjoyable day.

23^rd December 2008, at the sharp of 12am, numerous greeting and wishes occupied my limited hand phone memory, it warms my feeling whereby a lot of friends still aware of my birthday, really appreciate and pleased for their thoughtfulness. You have made a different on this special day and I commit to memory forever. The clock shows 4am presently. However, I still in conscious and motionless busy with the last assignment. I almost had done it. Thanks for giving a cut-off date today and permit me to have a good rest and to enjoy my remaining birthday hours at the age of 20. Terribly sleepy feeling make me snore non stop. But, it will come to the end!!

An unexpected surprise gave by classmates surprising me. At the time chit chat with some of classmates, and paying attention on classrep reminder regarding the ACCA evaluation form, a cake appear in my left hand side while I am turning my head to right and look on classrep. I am the one only still in dark with the cake appearance. A birthday song is sung and I am merely realized on it. I am stupid… how come I do not consider the reason behind when all classmates refuse to leave college canteen after lunch. They still take a seat there and chat non-stop. It is an obvious picture that it is strange and got something behind. I have poor observation on it but it gave me surprises. Thanks for giving me such surprises.

At night, another surprise was ended by friends. A group of 8 friends came up to to my house without my notification. When I was just arrived at home, my family and relatives assisted them and plan to give me surprise by hiding them in my room. Once I opened the room, sawing my friends make me shocked. Again, being shocked by them when a birthday song was played and cake appeared. Thank for you all for giving me the surprise…. Appreciate it deepest!

24^th December 2008, went out for sing K accompanied with friends to release my stress that bury in for few weeks. Enjoyable Christmas Eve day filled with the warmness Christmas celebration in friend’s house. Drinking red wine and playing games with friends are pleasurable. Luckily, I was not drunk at all.

25^th December 2008, it’s Christmas. Joining for a Christmas party participated by all Diploma friends. Sounds very nice and enjoy it greatly. A gift exchange event is the climax of the party. All of us enjoy the self-cooked meal and it was tasty and yummy. Satisfaction on the food provided enhances our enjoyment towards the party. Looking for the similar Christmas party in a year from now.

31^st December 2008, instead of count down in crowded shopping complex, I went for secondary friend’s open house invitation. Barbeque was prearranged and participated by all of us. On the lookout for a barbeque, it caused me to consume a lot. The time closed to a brand new year and we celebrated friend’s birthday fall in the last day of every year. Playing cream and running crazy go along with attractiveness fireworks were delightful. Enjoy it very much! Today, reached home in the midnight of 4am but still energetic. It is completely different as compared to the day when suffering the assignment on the same timing! haha..

1^st until 15^th January 2009, finally, the life of relaxing for a week has come to an end. Final examination will be held around the corner. And, it is the time for me to burn the midnight oil. Studying approximately 12 hours per day is terribly exhausted and it continuous for 15 days. No step forward out from house and unfavorably, hiding myself in room almost makes me crazy. That the suffering life studying in last minutes. Argh…

16^th until 21^st January 2009, it refer to the exam week that I suffered for. 3 difficult and tricky subjects come in line with only 1 day break in each of the subjects. It worsens my study plan and lack of time to well-prepared on three of it. Exhausted study on this few days come to the end. And, I realized that by pursuing a tertiary education, it no longer a simple and effortless thing to score. Commitment and consistency on study is the only way to succeed.

24^th January 2009 is the first day of Chinese New Year celebration. No more study life and is able to relax for the whole week. Eating and watching nice movie is the lovely things to do. Last but not least, by receiving Ang Pow from senior, it is delightful.

25^th January 2009, Packaging some necessity and clothes and preparing myself back to lovely hometown- Pulau Ketam.

Pulau Ketam, literally translated, means “crab island”. It is a small island located off the coast of Klang. The island is easily accessible from the Port Klang jetty by air-con ferry. The “floating houses” that come to view as visitors approach the island is a sight to awe any city slickers. Perching casually on long wooden stilts, these dwellings are suspended about one to ten metre above sea level.

Pulau Ketam is the best opportunity to witness the natural beauty of fishing village. We are able to enjoy the sight of mangrove swamps and species of birds around the island. And, Pulau Ketam is also free from air pollution, traffic jams, finding car parking problem etc.

Fishery is an important industry on this isle, and Pulau Ketam is known for its Firm Farm. These Fish Farm are seafood producer and the Farm are interesting site for tourists.

10^th February 2009, my holiday ended with the commencement of 3 months working life in audit firm. It is my initial office occupation throughout my life. Although I am trainee, but I am looking forward to gain as much as experiences I be able to. First day reached to the office and being arranged the seat by manager, I was not familiar with the new office environment. All unfamiliar faces appear in the office. Later on, being asked by a colleague to follow him and introduce myself to all of the staff within the organization. Is a tough thing for me to keep in mind with the entire staff name since the company has several departments. It include audit department, personal tax department, corporate tax department, secretary department, insurance department and accounting department. Introduced myself and a total of 90 staff being introduced have brought me a trouble to remember their name. But, forgive me and give me some time …I can do it..!

20^th February 2009, is the day being informed by colleagues to follow them for external audit. It is truly happy to take notice of that since I had been doing the administration job in the first 2 weeks. Instead of auditing a company, it is an associate for Tan, which is Persatuan Tan. Exposure to the audit for an associate has enhanced my knowledge towards audit fields. I learnt a lot on it.

10^th March 2009, is the 2^nd times to go for external audit. At this time, I am solely in charged with 3 dormant companies. Dormant companies are much simpler to be audited as compared to trading business. So, I am given the chance to accomplish it since this is my 1^st time. I am in charged from the vouching progress until the preparation of draft account to the final audited report. Thus, a bit pressure while auditing the companies, but finally I be able to do it fine.

On the same day, my results released. My anxiety and apprehension has increased and it averted me to check on the result. I was too worried on it. At the end, I was moved forward myself to accept the reality by logging into the college intranet. My results showed on the screen and I passed all. It is good news. I am able to proceed myself to final year in Advanced Diploma and at the same time, pursuing the professional paper, ACCA. For friends who are not doing well on the exam, I am here to support u and in no doubt that you can do it!

送给自己一个微笑

每当有人向我露出灿烂的微笑时,我就会快乐。因为我明白，他也把微笑送给自己。的确，在现实忙碌的生活中我们何不留出一点微笑送给自己呢？

把微笑送给自己，就会为自己擦洗伤痛。在生命之旅中我们必须有这样一种风度，失败与挫折，仅仅是一个记忆，只会使我们更加成熟。带着伤痕给自己一点微笑，才是人生的又一份精彩。

把微笑送给自己，就不要太多的心情透支。我们要学会过滤自己的心境，善与给自己的心情放假。不停地奔波，让我们的笑声带有几份苦涩。因此要经常打扫心灵的库房，所昨日的烦恼清扫出去，腾出心灵的空间来存放更多今天的快乐。巨石无法压跨的身躯，有时会被叹息拧弯。
一个人没有一份好心情，物质上再富有也是一种“外强中干”。

把微笑送给自己，就会给自己一份从容。面对争奇斗艳的鲜花，我们会欣赏但不会陶醉，面对袭来的风雨，我们会应对但不会逃避。虽然我们不能停下奔波的脚步，但我们会掌握脚步的节奏。无论是困难还是成功。有了困难，给自己一个微笑，我们不会逃避，会努力面对寻求解决方案，这是一种美丽；有了成功，给自己一个微笑，我们不会骄傲，在成功的喜悦里寻求解脱，坦然前行，让生命的脚步多几份稳健，这同样是一种美丽。

在生命之旅中我们须有这样的一种风度：失败和挫折，不过只是一个记忆，只是一个名词而已，不会增加生命的负重。带着伤痕把胜利的大旗插上成功的高地，在硝烟中露出自豪的笑容，才是人生的又一份精彩大风可以吹落碎石，却永远吹不倒崇高的大山。我们需要学会过滤自己的心境，善于给自己的心情放假，不停的奔波，让我们的笑声带有几分苦涩。因此，要经常打扫心灵库房，把昨日的烦恼清扫出去，腾出心灵的空间来存放更多的今天的快乐。人生有时候就是活一种心情，心情质量也是生命的质量。

给自己一个微笑，你就会领悟：痛苦一次，对快乐的理解就会更具体一次；失败一次，对成功的认识就会更深刻一次；受挫一次，对顺利的感觉就更清楚一次；失误一次，对认真的意义就会更明白一次。

给自己一个微笑，让心情变得舒畅；给自己一个微笑，让心胸变得开阔；给自己一个微笑，让生活变得更加美好。

常常送给自己一个微笑，让自己时时快乐，你的一生一定是美丽快乐的人生。

站在烦恼里仰望幸福

人生烦恼无数。
　　先贤说，把心静下来，什么也不去想，就没有烦恼了。先贤的话，像扔进水中的石头，而芸芸众生在听得“咕咚”
　　一声闷响之后，烦恼便又涟漪一般荡漾开来，而且层出不穷。
　　幸福总围绕在别人身边，烦恼总纠缠在自己心里。这是大多数人对幸福和烦恼的理解。差学生以为考了高分就可以没有烦恼，贫穷的人以为有了钱就可以得到幸福。结果是，有烦恼的依旧难消烦恼，不幸福的仍然难得幸福。
　　烦恼，永远是寻找幸福的人命中的劫数。
　　寻找幸福的人，有两类。
　　一类像在登山，他们以为人生最大的幸福在山顶，于是气喘吁吁、穷尽一生去攀登。最终却发现，他们永远登不到顶，看不到头。他们并不知道，幸福这座山，原本就没有顶、没有头。
　　另一类也像在登山，但他们并不刻意登到哪里。一路上走走停停，看看山岚、赏赏虹霓、吹吹清风，心灵在放松中得到某种满足。尽管不得大愉悦，然而，这些琐碎而细微的小自在，萦绕于心扉，一样芬芳身心、恬静自我。
　　对于心灵来说，人奋斗一辈子，如果最终能挣得个终日快乐，就已经实现了生命最大的价值。
　　有的人本来很幸福，看起来却很烦恼；有的人本来该烦恼，看起来却很幸福。
　　活得糊涂的人，容易幸福；活得清醒的人，容易烦恼。这是因为，清醒的人看得太真切，一较真儿，生活中便烦恼遍地；而糊涂的人，计较得少，虽然活得简单粗糙，却因此觅得了人生的大境界。
　　所以，人生的烦恼是自找的。不是烦恼离不开你，而是你撇不下它。
　　这个世界，为什么烦恼的人都有。
　　为权，为钱，为名，为利……人人行色匆匆，背上背着个沉重的行囊，装得越多，牵累也就越多。
　　几乎所有的人都在追逐着人生的幸福。然而，我们常常看到的风景是：一个人总在仰望和羡慕着别人的幸福，一回头，却发现自己正被别人仰望和羡慕着。
　　其实，每个人都是幸福的。只是，你的幸福，常常在别人眼里。

摩羯星座的男人.....

對穩健固執的摩羯座來說，浪漫的愛情是深藏在內心的夢，雖然他看來那麼堅強，一副「誰需要你」的樣子，事實上他是很需要溫柔鼓勵的。「缺乏真正的自信」常是摩羯座的通病，你必須經常的讚美他、鼓勵他，他表面上看來可能是「受不了的酷」，其實心裡「快樂的不得了」。摩羯座的男人是背著沈甸甸的包袱，奮力爬上山巔的大公羊。傳統、責任、理想，以及對財富和社會地位的慾望，全裝在大包袱裡，那就是負擔，也是催促他向上的力量。「堅忍」是摩羯座男子個性中最大的魅力，沒有人能像他一樣，那麼不怕苦、不怕難、不怕失敗。

連強悍的蠍座男子偶爾都需要情緒上的發洩。摩羯座的男人卻始終堅持到底，不達到目標，絕不休息。

有的女孩愛上一個摩羯座男子時，周圍的朋友可能會說：「天啊！你怎麼會愛上一個那麼無趣的男人呢！」不過，我倒覺得你真有遠見。的確，摩羯座的男人基本上是不喜歡社交的，他情願自己一個人安安靜靜的做事。

甚至他們喜歡的休閒活動，也是比較靜態的，例如，看書、聽音樂等等。

有些摩羯座的男人由於環境的關係，必經常參加社交的活動，他也很少是社交場合中風頭最健的人物，他通常比較沈默，讓大家非常驚訝。通常摩羯座的男子不能給你很豐富刺激的社交圈，這一點你要有心理準備。

他很少主動讓別人了解他，這當然跟他保守的個性有關，開朗天真的女孩可能會讓他比較容易打開心門，如果你真的了解他，他會很安慰。給他適時的鼓勵和讚美會讓他信心大增。不過如果你期待他熱情的回應，恐怕會有點失望，彼此心照不宣就成啦！

當然光是懂得讚美無法得到如此實際又努力的男人的。他通常會選擇一個「好媽媽」型的女人做妻子，經常對孩子表示愛心，會是令他心儀的美德。他是非常重視家庭的；大多數的摩羯座男子，不會把一個不被他家人接受的女子娶回家，如果一定要他在家人和你之間作選擇，是一件很痛苦的事，通常你贏的機會不大。所以，讓他的家人喜歡你，那你就成功了一大半了。

我說過摩羯座是實際的，對未來他也有著實際的野心。許多摩羯座的男子都娶了一個對他事業或是社會地位有幫助的女人為妻。因此就算你不是系出名門，至少你也得是舉止合宜，給他上司良好印象的淑女。叛逆少女實在不是摩羯座的典型，至少不是作「妻子」的典型，你可以熱情大方，開朗活潑，但是行為舉止還得在傳統社會規範中。或許在某些場合，他會難得放鬆說些輕佻的話，但那絕不表示他將認同你有這樣的表現。尤其是在他的上司、老闆或是員工面前，很少有男人比摩羯座男子更重視社會地位、社會評價的。你可不要做他的絆腳石。

他是固執而傳統的人，婚姻對他決非兒戲。一旦他決心要娶你，他肯定已經對你細細的觀察，深入的了解，實際的評估。摩羯座的男人很少會衝動的決定一樁婚事。他對婚姻的忠實度是值得信賴的，對於家庭美好未來的努力是肯定的。你最好也要尊重這件婚事。我在前面所強調的種種事情，婚後你最好也不要忘記，否則等他掉頭而去，你很難有第二次機會。

嫁給一個摩羯座的老公，就像買了終生保險，雖然不會常有甜蜜語可聽，但你會得到一切最實際的照顧。對多數摩羯座的男人來說，把太太照顧好是他們的責任，愈能讓太太過得好，代表他們的事業愈成功，社會地位愈高。或許你的摩羯座老公會要求你把家庭開支簿寫得清清楚楚，但事實上，摩羯座的老公常對太太大方極了，只不過他要你時時記得「他」才是一家之主就是了。

他重視社會地位，同樣也重視自己在家中的地位。等他的事業有了基礎之後，他會把更多心思放在家裡，你們的婚姻會像倒吃甘蔗一樣，愈吃愈甜。就如同我一再強調他們對財富、名望的追求，正因為這兩樣東西會帶給他們安全感，給他們信心，當他們內心因缺乏自信而產生的抑鬱消失時，你將看到摩羯座的熱情、詼諧與浪漫。那真是一個值得期待的男人。

幫助他早日完成他的理想，你就是他心目中永遠的賢內助，等你們金婚紀念日的時侯，他說不定會用玫瑰花把你的床圍起來，你會慶幸自己真是個有遠見的女人。

亲情，爱情，友情。。。。

今天，踏入了十二月中，象征着新的一年就要到来。但此刻的心情却是矛盾的(惊吓，伤心，失望，生气，无奈)，只因为今天发生了太多无可预测的事，大大使我领悟许多的道理与见解。当中包含了亲情，爱情，友情和社会情。。。

亲情， 是我与家人与亲戚的感情! 今早，刚接获消息告知我的亲戚不幸去世了，她被病折磨了数几月了。在短短的一个星期，有两位亲人不幸逝世。此刻的心情是难受的，毕竟，生离死别。。。我至今依然无可看得开，放得下。在这，衷心祈祷他们安息。。。

友情，是我与朋友之间的感情!何谓知心朋友? 是所谓的有难同担，有福同享吗?曾经，我有从小学一起玩闹到中学的好朋友， 任何事情都可以畅谈一番的。但随着流逝的岁月，个有个的忙，各自的目标，造成渐渐的疏忽，生疏了。犹记得当初他要出国深造时，千叮万附的要第一时间告知我，当他回国时。

当这次他回国了，我却蒙在鼓里，我全然不知。他没有告诉我。。。 我是从朋友们得知的。顿时，我是伤心的，失望的。我至今仍非常看重这一段友情，放不下它。 为何我可以全心全意的去对待一个人，但他却不是如此。。。

我害怕失去，我怕去面对。所以，我不敢去拥有它。。。 爱情如此，友情也如此。

我不敢全心全意的去对待朋友，不敢投入太多的感情。。。害怕，害怕当我非常重视那段友情时， 得到的，却是事与愿违的。害怕是"不是对方不在乎，而是我把对方看得太重了。"

与其期待着好朋友的回复，倒不如接收到普通朋友的一声问候，那感觉更温馨，更甜蜜。好朋友可能必不及自己那么重视这段友情，结果只让自己更难受。普通朋友有时的问候，更能让心情更开怀。

当我有一段蛮好的友情时，我不敢再进一步去促进，我想抽离它。身怕一旦我拥有了，我要面对失去。。我非常害怕被伤害的痛楚。。那感觉很痛，真的很痛!

爱情，与友情一样。。。 曾经，有过一段感情， 对方为我全心全意，但我却无动于衷。 对方为我做了很多事情， 但我却不领情。。。 最后，对方放弃了，她说她累了。。。。

我至今才领悟当中的痛楚，很不好受。。 和我那段友情是相同的。。。

感言: 亲情-珍惜与家人相处的时刻，好好相聚。。。。
友情-拒于促进一份友情只因害怕被狠狠的桶一刀，害怕是我一厢情愿。把那段友情看得太重
爱情-随缘就好!毕竟，我害怕哪一方桶了一刀，会使双方都不好受。。。

毕。。。

Sadnesssss......

2 December of 2008....2 days ago, i was make known by my parents that my uncle had passed away this morning. The news had shocked me as it is happen without my expectation. My uncle was healthy always when he still alive, suddenly such incident had happen on him and it really made me sad. The news is unbelievable for me and i cant really accept the fact.

My parents told me that the incident was happening too sudden as where my uncle was fell down from a chair when he was trying to have a sit after walked to the kitchen and had a drink in the midnight. It had hurt my uncle and my uncle was injured. During that time, my uncle still conscious and my aunt had accompany him to had a proper seat. Later on, my uncle was saying that he was tired and lay down on the chair and then fall asleep. My aunt's feeling was not well and tried to wake my uncle up. That time, my uncle was unconscious and din wake up anymore. He passed away.

Uncle, I always pray for you....god bless you always....

3 Dec of 2008..... I was receiving an e-mail from my internship application's company. Unfortunately, I was informed that I were being rejected to be the company's trainee. It is a bad news for me since i cant step closer and working in my desired company. I m still wonder why I am not qualified to be one of the staff of the company. I was disappointing.

Fortunately and surprisingly, I had saw my friend name was listed at the company's acceptance name list. I was happy to heard for it and I hope that he is able to do his best in performing his job and task within the organization. Exposure to the gaining of new experiences can help him to develop and improve his skills.

Gambateh...my friend...

4 Dec of 2008... a day which was frightening me as I need to proceed myself to an international company to have an interview in competing to get the internship trainee position. At the time before the interview, i had received a lot of regards n support from my friends.

Those regards include "All the best for your interview....", "do whatever you have to do. Be confident for yourself and person who care about.be your best there. all the best and good luck.", "everything will be fine and dun worry, be confidence yourself because我说你行你就行."........

The interview had come to an end and it brought an adverse outcome. I was being rejected as well and i really sad. I kept blaming myself why i so useless, how come i cannot make all of the thing run smoothly, such a small matter thing also cannot handle well.....

I had disappointed my parents, my brother, my sister and my friends. They had put in a higher expectation on me and it turn out with a results that was really make them down.

Sorry I cant make it....... let the time gone.....

My horoscope!!! Capricorn (Dec 22 - Jan 19)

R u think below is the best to describe me? A portion .....

He is a good listener and can understand everything easily and clearly. He can guess what you will say before you even say it. I can be a good listener but i cant guess what people will say... hoho

He often shakes his head or touch his hair. He is a big built, but he will tend to have a small ear. He tends to have a darker shade of hair and eyes' color. He will likely have a short and strong neck, broad shoulder, muscular, strong hands and grips. He has a shorter fingers compare to the man of the same size and same height in the other zodiac. His hands can work well at the same time can protect and care for his woman. Is it true? wakaka.......

He will walk firmly and always take a big long step. As he walks he will look around in caution with no disturbance from his problems at present or in the past. He likes to watch things built with fascinate and wonder about how it is done, so you could see him watching a construction site and not get bored.

Green is his favorite color.You will mostly see him wear green, navy, blue, or brown. In all 12 Zodiacs, he is the one who can get the most satisfaction from possession of beautiful thing, and cherish it as if it is very valuable to him even it is just a crystal ball made in France. Agree!!! I love green color very much....I really appeciate what i possess now...

It is his luck that he hardly has to chase after woman. They always come themselves without his invitation. He likes to treat his guest in his house than visiting his guest at their house. Haha.....such incident have not occurred in my life yet....

He does not like to be a center of attention, so if you need his help, you have to look up for him. He lives his life in stability and simplicity. Every decision made are already "Sure" and carefully thought out. He will not do what he has been asked to do if he is not interested in doing it. He acts casually but in reality, he always doing things seriously. Exactly... i am doing thing seriously on those in my flavor with...

He loves peaceful and quiet environment so in his free time, he will stay at home instead of going out and look for adventure. He loves nature and dreams of a nice and quiet house with lots of trees, or he may dream of a house in a beautiful countryside. That my love...

He will let you have freedoms and watching you in a distance. If you are over doing something, he will let you know by his icy cold look. He is the perfect lover in all the Zodiac for nothing he will not do for his love one. He won't allow people to laugh at him or think he is a joker, so he will spent for himself luxury for what it is worth. In reality, many people are laughing at me, but what for is to make all happy.... ntg for me....

He likes neat and well dressed woman, so do not be a slop if you are dating this guy. If you do that he will loose his face. He is the romantic type who would dance with you under the moon light. Am i romantic... wakaka.... i am nope...

Love will make him shines and you will see it in his face. He will not say it out loud, you have to know it yourself. Mayb i really is this kind of people.... i noe....